Monday, October 26, 2009

The one you least expect

Have you ever noticed certain people who look like they have it all. They always seem like the calmest, coolest, smartest, confident, kind-hearted soul that can make heads turn in a room. Having no care in the world. Most of the time they are the ones going through hidden problems like substance abuse, childhood abuse, physical or mental abuse or the ones who went through something in their past like molestation, neglect, abuse, etc. 

It makes you wonder how they became the person they are now.  I feel that life teaches us things by molding and shaping us through trials and tribulations. I also feel like if your childhood was destroyed by some type of abuse then it causes you to be angry for years or decades. Even childhood sexual abuse, like rape, robs victims of their personal power and sense of control over their lives and their bodies. Then there is self-hatred due to feelings of blame, shame, and low self-worth. Victims of abuse may feel that they’re less worthy or less valuable so they have a tendency of isolating themselves.

Through the years, you seek answers through books, writings, films, music, art and more which are all wonderful ways to escape the truth. Most say that they get their anger out through the before-mentioned and sometimes it shows or at least I can tell.  Do we ever really get over the past or will the past remain deep within.  No matter how you try to block it out of your mind or escape it, someway, somehow it can been found in films, books, writings and more and then it takes us back to where we once was.  No matter the damage done, you can't stay angry forever.  Life continues on

I believe that it teaches us to create what we see or have been through so that others can see and learn from you.  The abuser saves others who are or have been abused and they pay it forward somehow.  Once we know who we are and what we was ordained to be and give to the world, then we become an open book.  Having so many things to say, so many answers, so many shoes to fill.  So I say to those who cannot get pass the past, to find something to put that energy into and show the world how you made it through.  Believe it or not, GOD chooses some of us to go through hardships to become stronger people and teach the world what we know.  God want us to show the world how we became who we are.

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for writing this... I feel understood and comforted at the same time.